It is now 4 p.m., and the shadows of sopor, which I feel will be violent, are already falling upon me, a logical consequence of the painful hour yesterday....
But I felt very ill on October 24, too, to the point that, when the vision was over, which I had written with a headache really proper to meningitis, I did not have the courage to add that at the end I saw Jesus, dressed as He appears when He is entirely for me:767 in a soft robe of white wool tending slightly towards ivory and the same mantle. The clothes He wore in his first manifestation in Jerusalem as the Messiah.768
766 This entry is preceded by the episode involving “The Meeting with Judas Iscariot and Thomas and the Miracle for Simon the Zealot,” found in the cycle on The First Year of the Public Life.
767 The phrase “entirely for me” is explained on June 7.
768 The following pages in the original notebook contain these episodes:
October 27 - “Thomas Becomes a Disciple” (The First Year of the Public Life);
October 28 – “Judas of Alphaeus, Thomas, and Simon Are Accepted at the Jordan” (The First Year
of the Public Life);
October 29 – “Mary as the Teacher of Jesus, Judas, and James” (The Preparation);
October 31 – “The Return to Nazareth with Six Disciples after the Passover” (The First Year of the
Public Life).