I remain as if dying after Communion and hear Jesus moaning in his agony in Gethsemane. Unable to write, I remain this way, wanting and not wanting to transcribe those laments. I feel that for many they will seem like blasphemies... and they are so real. I remember the agony when I saw Him on February 11319 in Gethsemane.... The words correspond to the expression of my Jesus, completely tortured in spirit. Desperate...! But who accepts this?
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